I remember growing up how I bounced between friends constantly. No one had my back. I couldn’t trust anyone. It was horrific. I would have “friends” that I would find talking behind my back or making fun of me. None of them were true.
I’m not really sure if that came first or if me trying to be someone I wasn’t came first. Either way, the older I got, the more I tried to pretend to be someone I wasn’t. I either lied to try and win people over or make myself smaller because someone else shined brighter.
This caused so many issues as you could imagine. My self-worth was wrapped up in other people. I hit rock bottom more times than I would like to admit.
Then one day, I was pushed to get help. I started therapy. I started to really work on myself and figure out why I was acting the way I was. And you know what..? It was the best thing I ever did myself.
If I didn’t work on myself, I would have never have these friends. These friends are the ones I never thought existed. We have each other’s backs. We call one another out. We love hard. We laugh. We cry. Seeing joy in them brings tears to my eyes.
If I didn’t work on myself, I would not have these friends. It’s a humbling. And I am so grateful for it.
So if you don’t have these types of friends in your life, start working on yourself. Your true friends will show up.